Fatshion February 18/02

Hello you,

Today I'm wearing something old and something new(ish.) The t-shirt is from Evans and was a present about 5 years ago, I think, and I'm wearing my ASOS Curve tulle skirt again.

I noticed something scary today when I was editing these photos ready to publish. I noticed my internal monologue, ever critical. I consider myself to be a quite confident person but I gave myself a bit of a shock. I found a different grumble as I looked at every new photo. 'My nose looks so big!' 'God, my eye bags and crow's feet are more noticeable than ever!' And you know what? I do have a big nose, and if you knew my dad's side of the family, you'd say I got off lightly as we have some seriously strong noses!

And yes, with every passing day I'm ageing. My crow's feet - or smile lines as I prefer to call them - ARE getting more noticeable as time passes, because I love to smile and because I'm ageing every day. My eye bags/fine lines are really bad at the moment because I'm retraining my body out of it's nocturnal thing and getting by on a lot less sleep. But more than that, I'm 41 in less than 2 months and my face reflects that. I've decided to do something quite radical and CHOOSE to love my ageing face, just as I chose to love my body in the face of a world obsessed with thinness. We can't change the ageing process, but we can change our attitude to it.

Have you ever caught yourself thinking crappy thoughts about yourself? Now I know I do it, every time it happens I'm going to counter it with a thing I love about myself.

I'm wearing:
Necklace, old Bluebirds and Daisies
Earrings, Extreme Largeness
T-shirt, old Evans
Mesh tiered skirt, past season ASOS Curve
Shoes, Very (sold out now)
Bracelets, old & assorted
Flower ring, old Primark
Handbag, old Primark - you can see a better photo of it in this post

Thanks for reading!
Leah xoxo

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