30 day illness challenge day 6


If you could have told yourself when you first remember these symptoms arising, what would you have said?

Well.... not being psychic I couldn't have told myself it will all be OK, because at the time I didn't know that. I couldn't have told myself one day I will have a name to call the beast and the uncertainty would be over, because I didn't have a crystal ball. I couldn't tell myself that at some points I would feel almost suicidal and as if I was going insane, or that the uncertainty was worse than the illnesses. I didn't have much to say to myself at all, other than I knew something was terribly wrong and virtually no one believed me.

What I did have was someone who told me my symptoms sounded a lot like hers, that it was a rough road and she would be there for me. Now I try to do the same for anyone else who asks for my help, because I remember all too well how shitty it feels.

Sorry this is a bit dark! Thankfully things are a lot better now.

Thanks for reading.

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